A Letter to the Lost

Wasting time is something that I don't indulge in. I'm a mother and a wife, I don't have a lot of time to waste. Between the cleaning, cooking, and cleaning all over again, you have been nothing more than a fleeting thought. I have known you all my life, and you are a product of the same environment as I, but you are a foreign species; merely a shell of the person I once knew. You have always been stuck in your own vanity, missing birthdays, holidays, graduations, and the start of new lives all because you couldn't pull yourself away from your own world long enough to care about others'. You were never a role model for me, mostly just a lesson. "Don't be like that, don't act like that, don't run with people associated with that," always what I told myself and I didn't indulge the way you did. I didn't partake, best decision of my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect. I have made my fair share of mistakes, and I still have the occasional hiccup in my path, but I don't stumble and I don't backtrack. Leave the past in the past where it belongs, you are in my past and that's where you're staying. I have been wasting time out of my whole life worrying about you, wondering if you're okay, if you're still alive, and wasting tears on someone that wouldn't waste a sniffle on me. Those days are over. I have a life of my own now. Your life isn't a concern of mine. I've tried the best I could to make you understand that your life is worth more than you're pawning it away for, but you are too far gone. I wish you all the best. I wish you happiness and good health. I'm sure you don't wish the same on me, but I really don't care. I've had enough adversity in my lifetime that I really don't have the energy for any more. Wish what you want on me, but I have no ill will toward you, I just want to discontinue my participation in your constant ups and downs. This is simply a goodbye. A way for me to bring peace to the memory of you. So, goodbye old friend. I don't know if you ever truly were a friend, but new friends have come along regardless and will continue to come for as long as I shall live.